WALKING INTO FORGIVENESS

Today, I have decided to write on the topic of FORGIVENESS, for it is what has been running through my veins since the beginning of this New Year.

As a collective, it is generally believed, "we need to forgive." And I am not here to say any differently. However, the path to reach this place within is not easy. There is a lot of weight carried in our personal baskets, emotions that are not so easily dissolved that head this process. These emotions, once acknowledged, fully released and dissolved, paves the way to allowing us to finally face what is hidden deep within the walls of our very soul. Here lies the Promise for Inner Peace that Forgiveness will bring.

The question arises then, as to why we must forgive? That is, what is happening in our lives and within our inner self, that brings this forward into our consciousness, and into our heart? While we all generally experience many positive and loving things in our lives, many of us carry the burdens and layers of the negative, of life's great disappointments, of abuse, abandonment, and other deep-seated traumas. These experiences and their attached emotions cannot, and in my opinion, should not simply be wiped away as though nothing ever occurred. Yet this is often what our society as a collective, and many people within our personal lives, in fact, wants us to do. This, so they don't have to stand in witness nor take responsibility for said actions that caused such pain and harm.

For the person(s) carrying these emotions, they are not easily let go of, nor reconciled. For many, even the mere mention of forgiveness, can conjure up a host of ill feelings, and even anger. If this speaks to you then my words are not lost on you. You know the difficulty, the burdens that harbor themselves deep into the layers of your very being. Layers that must be worked through in some fashion before the idea of Forgiveness can truly enter into the picture. And the longer we take to accept and walk down this path to a full reconciliation within ourselves, the higher the risk that we will carry and build more unease, more anger, more resentment deep within. The result is a life filled with continued stress, dis-ease, discontentment, and unfulfillment. Maybe not in all areas of your life, but there will be pockets filled with this poison.

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My Personal Walk into Forgiveness

Looking into my own life and my own way of responding to the atrocities acted out against me in this life, I see how easy it has been to externalize, to push out, and place blame onto this or that, and unto others for the injustices, the wrongdoings, for my deep inner pain and sorrow. I have carried so long this basket, also filled with anger and bitterness for taking away a life that should have been filled with real love and compassion, care and kindness. Throughout this life, I have been searching for the authentic reconciliation to end this ill-conceived cycle. A continual pattern, a thread woven into the very tapestry of my soul's life.

Until now, what I didn't fully understand is how this particular reconciliation to find an end to this repeated karmic cycling must come from deep within my own self, my own soul, and not through anything or anyone outside of myself. The real work lies here. The depth that must be travelled prior to this real understanding, is the journey that must be taken, and is the one I have been living consciously for the past 20 plus years now. This path, this journey, regardless of its length, will hold the truth of your soul and pave The Way to your own Walk into Forgiveness and Reconciliation with the Divine.

Wisdom, Lessons and Learnings: Journal Entry January 13, 2026

As I open my heart and mind, I receive the words as given through the Divine

"In order to reach the state of forgiveness, I must walk through and ultimately surrender the

attachments to my own emotions, i.e. pain, sorrow, anger, resentment, bitterness. I must release

my inability to change all the things, the acts of trespass and transgressions against me. I cannot

reverse what has already passed. I must wash it all through the river waters and cleanse my soul of

it all."

These emotions have come from the continuance of "clinging to the bits and pieces of a life I once had." A life my soul remembers like it was yesterday. Here, I am referring to my soul's origins to a life I began upon the earth many eons ago. A life that held everything I could ever desire. Yet, in one final swoop, it was all taken away from me. A life ended. Everything lost. A severance to who I was, to who I inherently am, and to my full connection to the Divine Presence. It is here, this original trauma, where these emotions found their way to me and since, have been on replay, imbedded into the skin of my soul - tightly wrapped inside my core karmic thread through each lifetime since, including the one I am currently living. The trap of remaining attached to such a great loss for me and to all its specific aspects have continued to vibrate throughout time.

However, it is here where I am once again reminded that while all the above is indeed what my soul, and myself have been attached too, it is not where I am to place my attention to in order to find peace and the reconciliation I seek. In fact, I am specifically being asked to move beyond all the trauma and pain and look further into myself and, to the time before my soul ever incarnated into the physical dimension. It is here I must look at the decision my soul placed into being.

Journal Entry continued......

"It was here my soul pushed forward upon its own agenda and the disparity between its own

wants and desires" and that of the Divine wishes and plans. My soul took control and made its

own path, trailblazing without regard to the fate of that which was already written in the Divine

Plan. Today, this is where I must find and apply reconciliation, thus forgiveness, to God, and to

myself for my own original transgression against the Natural Law of Order."

"Until I stop looking towards all the transgressions that have occurred and to those who applied

and bring full acknowledgement and repentance to my own transgression against the Divine Plan,

then there can be no reconciliation with God. That is, no complete unity of my spirit inside the

Womb of the Divine."

This is where my karmic thread actually begins, and once I lay at the bottom of the sea in my own earthly death, absorbing all of the pain and its emotions of all that occurred that faithful day, the karmic thread took hold. But it was I, and my soul's Will that has held onto this rooted thread like a justified lifeline. But in truth, this only kept the initial cut continue to bleed that much more, adding, not releasing more pain.

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